July 14th, 2013

Dear Lover,

   I honestly have to jot down that there is a frog in the little wedge between our deck and rail. Also, check out this picture. Its of a spiral on my cucumber leaves. I’m not quite sure how I managed to get the background to be black to this day, but its really awesome ! There was a string in the background in the original picture, but then i was thankfully able to black out the string !!  God is amazing ! How did he even manage to create such a thing ? Image

july 10th, 2013

Dear Lover,

 Got Passion and Purity by Elisabeth Elliot in the mail yesterday. More than halfway done with it. I asked a godly older sister yesterday if she had read it, and had a good conversation with her about relationships. Wow, when I read her book so far , I don’t think you can get anymore pure in a relationship! 

July 8th,2013

Dear Lover,

  These last few days, I’ve hit an epiphany. I’ve realized that i’ve fantasized and idolized marriage more than I should be.  While I think it would be amazing to be married and to you and in a relationship, God has been calling me to really reflect on myself first before I commit to you. There is a verse in the Proverbs 31:30

“Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised. “

This verse has struck me. While many tell me I’m beautiful, what do they see in me ? Do they see a god fearing woman ? Or physical beauty? God has been convicting me of this. While there is nothing wrong with being beautiful physically, I’ve realized many flaws that I have that may displease the lord. I’ve found myself comparing myself to others wondering what I don’t have secretively, owning a lot of pride in my guts, and just discouraging others and talking about others behind their backs because they secerelty annoy me but I’m “too nice of a person to tell them taht somehting they’re doing is annyoing me .. I seem to find a fault in all of my girl friends and talk about it to someone else.. probably the biggest victim of all would be my mom , who listens to me complain about others all the time. I am praying that God will help me by giving me a heart full of love to love others uncondintioanlly .Its so easy to judge others. 

July 7th, 2013

Dear Lover,

 Went out to eat with a couple of friends. Wasn’t 21 so I wasn’t allowed to have drinks. But our young adult pastor was there. He is roughly 3 months newly wed, and was talking about differences between being married and not married. He was saying how being married has its perks and is interesting. 

He was also advising some young men from our congregation. There were two young men who had basically just started working and our pastor was asking when they were planning on moving out. And he described his journey from being single to becoming a newly wed. It seems like an adventure from when you’re first wed haha.